A Tear in My Heart


Ok so it's 1AM and I'm filled with so much emotion. Where do I even start?! Let me begin by saying that going to a concert today was the LAST thing that I would have expected, and I guess that's what makes it one of the best nights of my life. It was my turn to go up to Jersey City, and the plan WAS to have dinner at some Italian restaurant once I arrived and relax for the rest of the night. I finished my normal 10 hour Friday shift, picked up my WaWa coffee for the road, and headed up to Jersey City. About an hour and a half into my drive, it was around 7:30 when Kyle called me and said "HEY! Wanna go see twenty-one-pilots tonight?!" I immediately was super confused because I knew they were playing in NY both today and tomorrow, and that tickets were sold out way back when and for a FORTUNE... so there was this long pause. He said that he was scouting tickets online and that really great seats were going for such a bargain of a price. Mind you that this concert started at 7pm and the first act was already close to finishing. I knew I wouldn't make it to Jersey City for another half hour and it took about an hour to even make it all the way to Brooklyn. I said no. I kept justifying reasons why it was not worth like we've seen them three times already and that it was too last minute, and that I haven't eaten since 12pm, and we have some birthdays and a wedding coming up, and that we just came back from a costly mini-vacation, and I just payed off my semester tuition, and yada yada - just a bunch of excuses. We sat in silence for a little bit and then he just agreed. I proceeded to tell him about my day at work and about 5 minutes later he said "Wait... the price for lower levels are super cheap right now, ARE YOU SURE you don't want to go?!" I don't know what made me change my mind but I said "Uhh ok, let's do it!" We went back and forth about 3 times, saw about 10 pair of tickets come and go until he just finally bought a pair. I kept saying to myself "What just happened?!" I parked in JC, and we literally RAN. We ran to the PATH, ran through the oculus, ran to the next subway train, and then ran to Barclays. Kyle had no printer and they wouldn't accept our e-tix so we had to go back out of the building and have this sketch guy print our tix from his printer for $5 each (like CMON!)!! I kept saying... omg it's a scam and we just lost money. But nope. It all worked out and we were in our seats at 8:50. We missed both opening acts, but made it just in time for twenty one pilots at 9! My stomach was in all sorts of knots. I couldn't believe I was there. I couldn't believe what just happened the past hour and how I even made the decision to do something so spontaneous. I'll tell ya that it was one of the greatest choices I've ever made. Although it was our fourth time seeing them in concert, there was something different about everything just being unplanned and just the feeling of living in the moment (not to mention our killer lower level seats!!). I thought to myself that I would have regretted everything if I didn't go. When they played A Tear in My Heart, which was one of the last songs, I teared up a little bit because I thought "how in the world did I ever get so lucky?! how is this my life? how did I get blessed with landing a man who loves spontaneity & thrill?" I just couldn't find the answers. I just looked at Kyle and smiled.

Try to always follow your heart and your gut intuition. So often we make decisions through outweighing all the pros & cons, and leading with our brains on what is the "right" choice for us., but sometimes you just have to DO. Don't think, don't hesitate, just do it. I've always been one to second guess myself. I've always played it safe, followed the plan, think smart... but that isn't always the best thing. Do things out of your comfort zone, out of your norm... because life IS short, and it'll pass in a blink of an eye. Just make sure that you live yours to the absolute fullest and the way YOU want it. On that note, gøødnight.